depression

i am such a depressed soul .... sigh. cannot write about this week sorry. too many things are occupying my mind today.

ab kya

bahut waqt se hindi me likhne ka awsar nahi mila. To socha ki yeh post hindi ke naam. aapa, bhai aur bhanjaa ne poora pichla hafta le liya. afsos ki OT ke saath apne iftaari nahi nibha saka. lekin khair. abhi abaab ammi ne bhi pune mein ek aur ghar dekh liya hai. inshallah unka sapna poora ho jaye. kitni ajeeb baat hai ki bachon ke sapne poore karte karte zindagi nikal jaati hai, lekin bachon ne bhi apne maa-baap ke khwaishon ko nahin bhoolna chahiye. abba ammi ne ek aur rishta dekha. maloom nahi unhone kya socha hai.

jaan booch kar MAS day trip ke liye mein nahi gaya. uske jagah par hum desert breeze par barbeque karne nikal gaye. chotte ko to mazaa aaya hi lekin lagta hai ki khargosh ke gosht se uska pate kharaab ho gaya tha.

shaadi ke baare mein aur sochne ka waqt mila tha. yahaan par bhi kitni ladkiyan hai, shaadi ke layaak. lekin kya yeh khaylee ek bahaar ki tasweer hai. unke dilon mein jhaakna itna aasaan nahi. meri yaadash itni zabardast nahi hai, lekin jo yaadein hai woh apne saathi hoten hai. agar unke baare mein aapas mein baat cheet nahi ki ja sakti hai to phir waise jeevan sathi ka kya phayda. meinay bhi kaafi mushkilon ko paar karkiya hai. lekin agar mere saath wala woh nahi samajh sake to phir ek doosra roop/mask humein chadaana padega. humare abba ammi ne humein trinamool/zameen aur waqt ke mayne mein kaafi tilawat di hai. ab unko bas aise thukraya to nahi jaata. batman ne jo rachel ko jawaab diya woh bahut dil par laga "It's not who you are underneath that matters. It's what you do that defines you". Matlab humein apne muskilon ko aise hi choor kar dena chahiye?

kaafi baar sochta hoon ki.. kaash, kaash.... nahi yeh kabhi aur ke liye. aap ko yeh sawaal mujhe pesh karna padega.

my bhanjaa wants it all

AWK (not the linux one) my bhanjaa was quite happy to run around, visit the masjid, see the other little children studying there and praying, climb up A mountain unassisted, grind my tennis racket on the courts, run in the desert breeze park and have a fun time on the whole. So much so that he has taken my 'rainbow' glass, alarm clock with him and actually created a tantrum since mamoo was not coming along. GEE :) :) :). he wanted to take my house along with him if he could. guess atleast one more person can tolerate me.

ww37

On the whole, quite unproductive. Actually i get a call suddenly from a 91 code and it beats me. There is my dad at the other end and he is trying his new cellphone to call my sis and me. It turns out that one of my cousins had visited my parents and brainwashed them about daari and elimination. As expected i must say.

Till now there has been only 2 supporters for keeping the small daari that i keep. So my parents all hyper about why daari is not a necessity before marriage and there is time after it as well, how daari goes against the indian mentality and etc etc. So the ultimate dilemma - if I keep a daari, Indian muslim girls cancel me out, and since yaadi yaadi yaah blah. Muahahaa, So I guess I should start looking in outer space. One thing for sure, I need to talk to that cousin soon.

Sometimes then it feels that an arranged marriage is more conditions and less personality. Subhanallah. And speaking of daari, you take one walk outside and you can see it for yourself. How brave are the hijabis who can face the crowd wearing something that is prescribed and not something that is the norm. salute-smiley.

Comic of the week is shown. Current book - the five caliphs.

learning from amrus

ok at the cub scout meeting, Alhamdulillah we have a new desi volunteer. As I introduced him to the pack, a Tiger blurts out " So are you a born Muslim?". So I guessed that his parents might have told him that he is superior since he was a born muslim.

Also why do these kids have to comment on everything? it beats me!!! Can they not hold everything for one hour? How are you to discipline them if they will not listen?

Randommness Unlimited

Candians say EH too often. What about aahs (those pregnant pauses)? any guesses or is this just some global phenomenon?

What about starting a Toastmaster at the Masjid? Dues are exhorbitant ($54 for year).

Anyone seen the movie Walk On Water? Its in hollywood right now though not on MVP. MUST SEE AS IT HAS DOME OF THE ROCK ON ITS COVER.

Have you observed that some forwards that you had received from one friend a year ago, traverse on more than one route and then arrive from another friend.

Why do small avoidable mistakes in life still create regret today?

Why do we establish imaginary levels of imaan for anyone, unless actually we have talked to them? "Presumed high imaan, until proven not!!!"

Why is life so difficult?

WW36

First and formeost WW36 != world war but WW36==work week 36.

To say the least it was a tough one at work and a peaceful one at home. The work part is giving me the creeps while i write over here. I have been battling some incomplete instructions and trying my best to understand why testcards work at one place and do not at another. Please make special special dua for me!!!

On the home front-> I think i made the day for an 8th grader. I dont know how she looks like and just know her name. She had wanted to thank me, but I was already out of the masjid by then. Actually her essay had actually gone like "I want to make masgids at all places and .... when I grow up I will donate all my money to masgids." Yeah it reminded me of the time when I wanted to find the cure to cancer and ended up becoming an engineer (of sorts)!! Alhumdulillah!! Subhanallah!!.

The hunt is on as usual and am trying to come with terms to reality. I did post smthng earlier about not lowering your standards Islamically, but more often than not I am trending to that. Either I start hunting with a magnifying glass for that elusive one or just give up and accept my desiness, and how I am confined to my fate. (Brings up vision of those ads on indian tv that dealt with bhaagya).

And please check out my coloring of the Chilli at the Chilis restaurant at Mill and Univ. Check for name=verychilli. hehehe

Bush has been vowing so much these days. He is not a just ruler and now will he have the ability to fulfill all these vows that he makes for publicity?

Had a great time out with OT. Virginia Tech won its opener and it was all because of our collective cheering in that Scottsdale restaurant/bar. Great to meet up with Fellow hokies and also to fly the VT flag in the ASU neighborhood.

It looks like we need to give an introduction to cub scouts to all parents that leave their children there, under the false presumption that it is a discipline boot camp, a reading club, a babysitter program, or a temporary hideout on a Saturday afternoon!!!!!

Happy Birthday to me !!!!